Why?

My week started out okay.... I woke up on Monday, took a shower, got dressed, and then my phone started ringing. It's never a good sign when someone calls you before 7 am.

One of my really good friends whom I teach with was on the phone. She said that she's bleeding and her doc wants her to come to the office asap. Did I mention she's 20 weeks pregnant? I told her I'd cover her class and for her just to concentrate on keeping her and her little one safe. I assumed she was going to be fine. I was hoping it was nothing.

I didn't hear anything during the day until our conference period. Then I went to make copies and our asst. principal tells me that the secretary just spoke to my friend and that she lost the baby. What? I was totally confused. How could she just lose the baby? She's 5 months pregnant. There's a baby in there!!! What happened?

I decided to wait until afterschool to call her. But as I'm getting in my car, I notice I have 2 missed calls the Medical Center. It's my friend. She's been admitted for pre-term labor. She had been dilating and having contraction and that's what caused the bleeding. She said that she hadn't lost the baby yet. But the doc thinks that what's gonna happen. But for the time being they are trying to stop the labor. I tell her I love her and to stay strong and I'll call her tomorrow.

I get to school the next day and it seems like everyone knows that she lost the baby. I get pissed and let everyone know that that hasn't happened yet and that they need to keep her in their prayers. (I think my pregnancy hormones got the best of me!)

I called her at lunch time and she's already crying. The doc had just left her room and there's been no change in stopping her labor. He's ready to induce her. He told her that there's just no way that baby will make it. It's just too soon. She's gonna have to deliver her baby. She's losing it on the phone. I hear it in her voice. There are no words to say at moments like this.

She calls me Wednesday morning and tells me everything is done. She made it through delivery okay. She's already feeling better. She had her second beautiful son and he died shortly after coming to this world.

Why? What is the reasoning behind this? Why does anyone have to go through something like this? I just don't understand. I know that God has a plan for us all, but it's times like these that we've gotta have extra faith.


I did go by and see her today and she's doing amazing. I really admire her strength, and she's already talking about giving it another go. Wow.

Busy day!!!!

J and I had a fabulously, productive day! Yay!

We borrowed my uncle's truck. We drove over to the only Target in the Valley that has my breast pump and bought it. We used like 10 gift cards! It was kinda funny. Then we had a great burger lunch. Yum. Then drove to Babies R Us and picked up our crib, ordered our dresser/changing table, and bought our mattress and bedding.

Pics will come later!

The longest week!

Today marks my 31st week being pregnant. It feels like I'm coming down the hill. Before we know it, the baby will be here. It's getting kind of scary.

I'm feeling okay. The exhaustion is back. I haven't been this tired since I was 8 or 9 weeks pregnant. My back is starting to kill me all over. And I can't get a good night's sleep. It's not so bad...at least not yet.

Goob is still kicking away in there. He's exactly like his momma. He doesn't like any unnecessary touching. I'll put my hand on my stomach and he'll kick it away. J puts his hand on my stomach and Goob will kick it away. He's certainly gonna be a Mommy's boy.

This week marked the end of my tutorial classes. Thank goodness! I was having to stay in school til 5:30 three days a week and it was taking it's toll on me. I'll miss the extra bucks, but it'll be worth it to be home and take a cat nap during Oprah. :)

And the next few weeks are gonna fly by. Next week, we'll only have a 3 1/2 day week due to Charro Days. The next week is our TAKS test which will be an easy week. The following week J and I will be driving to Houston for baby shower #2 for me, and then it's Spring Break. The next week after that is Easter Weekend and baby shower #3. Then it'll be April.

OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDNNNNNNNNESSSSSSSS!

Goob's room is coming along. We got carpet today. Hopefully, we'll be able to go pick up the crib tonite and order the dresser. Pics will be up tomorrow of the crib and carpet!!

30 week appointment

All is well and normal. I gained a pound since my last appt which puts me at 6 under my pre-pregnancy wait. Doc says I'll probably gain another 5 lbs. I'm measuring 31 weeks which is weird since I've never measured ahead. I've always measured right on track. Who knows what it means.

And I'm having to start doing kick counts. That'll be fun. Something else to stress out about.

Happy 26th Birthday, J!

Obsessing

I have my first baby shower today. Yay! But I'm already obsessing...... over my registries. I'm registered at Target and Babies R Us. I've been checking these like a hawk over the past few days. As of yesterday morning, I'd only gotten one or two things from the registry?!?! And I know that 25 people are coming today. How is that possible? Oh my goodness, listen to me. I sound like such a snake. I can't help it if I want presents and I want them now!!!!!! I'm gonna chalk all this crazy psycho talk to being pregnant. I'm really not that bad a person. I promise!

ETA: I just checked my registries again and some other items have been fulfilled. YAY!

Baby Shower this weekend!

My inlaws are giving me my first baby shower this weekend!!! Yippee!!

A Valentine's Day Survey

1. What is his name? J

2. How long have you been together? 7 years

3. How long did you date? From February 4th, 2001 - June 8th, 2007 (We were engaged for the last 18 months of that though)

4. How old is he? 25 for two more days

5. Who eats more? Him. I haven't had much of an appetite since I've been preggo.

6. Who said I love you first? I have no idea anymore. That was a long time ago.

7. Who’s Taller? He is.
8. Who can sing better? Neither of us would ever try out for American Idol.

9. Who is smarter? Me, of course.

10. Who does the laundry? Me.

11. Who pays the bills? I'm in charge of our finances.

12. Who sleeps on the right side? Him

13. Who mows the lawn? He does. But he's not very good at it.

14. Who cooks dinner? Me

15. Who drives? Him
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16. Who is more stubborn? That's a tie.

17. Who kissed who first? He kissed me. I don’t know if he’d agree with that assessment, though.

18. Who asked who out first? He asked me.

19. Who proposed? He did.

20. Who has more friends? IHe does.

21. Who is more sensitive? Me.
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22. Who has more siblings? Him. I have one bro. He has two sisters and a brother.

23. Who wears the pants? 50/50

February 14th

Psycho preggo!

So last night J and I went to Home Depot. They had come to measure the nursery for carpet and now we were going to get our estimate and then pay for the installation. We got there and spent 20 minutes sitting at the flooring specialist's desk waiting. We pressed the button and no one came to help us. Then we finally caught someone and they told us that we could be helped at the service desk. So up to the service desk we go. When we get there, there are 2 people behind the desk just chit-chatting, gossiping about how was with who. When we finally got there attention, they told us that the women who could help us would be right back. So we waited again. When the women came, she handed us our quote and that was it. She wasn't able to answer any of our questions. When we asked when the flooring specialist would be there, she said that he should be there now so she paged him. Apparently, he took off for the night already. (We were there at 7:30 and Home Depot doesn't close until 10?!?!) So there was no one to help us. I really wanted to get the estimate and talk with the guy and pay so that they could have come to install it tomorrow and Friday which is when they originally told us they could do it. I just want the nursery to be DONE!!! So needless to say, I was pissed when we walked out of Home Depot with no carpet coming.

The first thing that J tells when when we get in the car is that I needed to have more patience and what kind of mother am I going to be when the baby comes if I have such little patience!!!!! (Side note: I'm a 4th grade teacher. I have all the patience in the world, believe me!) J said it in a kind of joking manner, but me being a psycho took it to heart!

When we got home, I went directly to bed and starting reading. I had the tv off, the big lights off, and I was just using a bedside lamp. When J came to the room, I was half-asleep. J turns on the big lights, turns on the TV (loud), and starts to iron his clothes. It was just so rude. He knows that it takes me forever to fall asleep. I make him turn the tv down and then I try to go back to sleep. When he's done, he gets into bed and then puts our dog on the bed and gives her a squeaking toy!!!!! So our little dog starts squeaking away. I freak out, grab my pillow and leave the room.

I originally went to the living room and laid on the couch, but that got too uncomfortable so I go back to the bedroom, where J gives me a look like, "what did I do?" I grabbed my pillows and go to the guest room. He yells at me from the bedroom to quit being so dramatic and come back to bed which just makes me more pissed off.So I get into the guest room and spend like another hour or two just laying there trying to fall asleep. I think I was too mad to sleep. I woke up this morning in a great mood until I realized that I was in my guest room and not my bedroom.

I'm not usually like this. I'm usually go with the flow. And nothing ever has made me or J sleep apart since we've been living together. Pregnancy has made me crazy. And it doesn't help that J sometimes puts his foot in his mouth!!!!I can't take 2 and a half more months of being pissed at the world.

What I probably shouldn't be reading when I'm fixing to have to give birth...

Our New Pack 'n Play and Nursery Progress

Belly Pic

9th pic: February 10th, 29 weeks and 1 day (10 weeks and 6 days to go!)

I feel like I scrammed the public library

About 4 years ago when I first moved down here, I got a card at the public library. Well, I wasn't very responsible with it and I checked out 7 books and took months to return them. By that time I accumulated the maximum fine for each book which is $10 per book for a total of $70 which I never paid.

Well, J and I are trying to save money, but I love to read and I need some kind of fix. So I was thinking since I've moved twice since then and my name changed maybe they wouldn't know who I was.

So I went to the library today. I told them I lost my card and haven't been here for years. They asked for my driver's license which has my married name. The guy there couldn't find me. I didn't offer my maiden name or old address. So he made me reapply and I got a new card. Yay!

But now I feel kinda guilty. Just a bit. And I promise I'm gonna return these before their due date!!!! Promise.

My Stomach Moves!

Last night, J and I were at dinner at my step-mom's house. My whole family was pretty much there. We were sitting around the dinner waiting for the food to be ready. I looked down at my stomach and saw a kick. A hard one. You could see my shirt bounce. J who was sitting on the other side of the table saw me looking at my stomach and then Goob kicked again and he saw it. Yay!